When I am Weak, He is Strong

Today I was feeling rather useless... Like, is there really a purpose I am here? Yes, I'm having fun, I learning Japanese, hanging with awesome people, and working hard in school. But, I feel like I need to be doing more, more things that truly matter. And, was actually thinking about this for a good half an hour while walking today.

I mean, I have worked so hard to try get back to Japan, but if that does happen, is this really where I am supposed to be? I considered this for a long time. Because, I just don't know what kind of eternal impact I am leaving here, and sometimes I wonder whether it is worth anything.

But of course, it's then - at my most worthless state - that God goes and completely blows my mind.

When I am weak, He is strong (and thus, I am too), and can use me to do things I never could on my own.

Amazing thing, is I read this passage just last night (just a slightly different version):

"But He said to me, “My grace is sufficient for you, for my power is made perfect in weakness.” Therefore I will boast all the more gladly about my weaknesses, so that Christ’s power may rest on me. That is why, for Christ’s sake, I delight in weaknesses, in insults, in hardships, in persecutions, in difficulties. For when I am weak, then I am strong." 2 Corinthians 12:9-10

Did I think much of it then? I mean, yeah, it's always good to know, but it wasn't anything special.

But now? I am in complete awe at the perfect timing.

Coincidence? 

Not a chance. And, it never is.

(Which, I actually explained to a friend tonight, and didn't even realize it had just happened to me in this way until I came home!)

And so, tonight, I rejoice in my weakness, for I was used by my Heavenly Father. And I can't think of a single thing that is better than that. ♥